just hang up my photos. (:
bought da thingy at ikea. like it very much.
pics = memoriess.
haha.

sad.
why do i have to hide everything?
becos i don wan them to know?
becos i don like?
hais. everytime when i feel like crying,
i would tend to ren. ren and ren.
the outcome? = more sad.
then today i really cannot tahan ler.
my everyday life.
you know how hard it is to survive here?
i guess u all wont understand.
it's really terrible.
i know i have to listen to them.
but?! unreasonable reasons , i wont accept them.
i tend to tok back to fight for my own rights.
i know it's bad to do this to them.
but i really had got no choice.
i am still not able to adapt to this kind of life.
i'm really not used to it.
say i've changed ; say i've become naughty ; u name it.
but i really have got no one to tok to about this issue.
becos my sadness stays for a while.
when i reach sch, i wont be unhappy over my family issue and therefore, i didnt get to share that feeling with jas or ms.
how i wish i can say everything out.
i find it rather hard for me to speak up once that thing happened.
i know they will be there for me.. but, i just cant bring myself to say out everything as the 'feel' is not there at all.
and i find no reason to be angry after what happened.
thats me.
being so fine after a 'sad case'
but.. they were always in my heart, my mind.
they are my family members.
of cos they remain the deepest in my heart and mind.
including the hurting parts.
therefore, when all these gathered, i began to breakdown. mentally.
i can cry i can do anything but i dont think they help.
i can say out i can hug my bear but they cant cure too.
only if they could understand me, understand my position, understand what i'm thinking, how i'm feeling, accept my feelings and doings(correct doings) , i'm sure i'll be a very happy and fortunate children on Earth.

i wish they could.
i hope they would.